Right around lunch today, my eyes were drawn to a photo that's on my desk.
This one.
This one.
It's been here for just under 2 years. I see if everyday.
It makes me smile. It brings back great memories.
It makes me smile. It brings back great memories.
But today, today it did something a little different.
It made me sad. It made me cry.
This was taken not that long ago, on a family vacation, and here we are almost 2 years later and I'm wondering where my babies went. Where the time went. How they've gotten so big.
I text my husband the photo and said what I was feeling. He sent back some encouraging words, but all I could text back was "I've already missed the best times!!!"
And I want to post here that I TAKE THAT BACK.
And I have to keep telling myself that.
I might have missed being home with my babies while they were much younger, I might have missed watching them grow every day while I was working out of the home, and I might have missed so much more that I don't even know...but I'm here to promise that as long as I'm still working FT (plus some), I will not miss any more time that I AM home. My 3 babies will be my center of attention. I won't miss the time i do have with them.
And then, when that day comes that I can be home with them, I won't take it for granted. I won't complain. I won't miss time. I will soak it up, knowing I'm now doing what I've ALWAYS wanted to do. Be home with my kids. Get the daily household chores done while they are at school. Get dinner started. Have my husband home for dinner...not just for bed time. Not have to rush home from work to get them from the bus to have them do their homework to get them to activities. I don't want the rush. I want to enjoy. I want to soak it all in. I will make it ALL the best times!
And while I'm not there yet, I can feel it. I know it's so much closer than it's ever been. And until that day comes, I will enjoy the time I do have now. I will be more patient with them and myself and my husband. I will soak it all in.
I will make it ALL the best times! :)
It made me sad. It made me cry.
This was taken not that long ago, on a family vacation, and here we are almost 2 years later and I'm wondering where my babies went. Where the time went. How they've gotten so big.
I text my husband the photo and said what I was feeling. He sent back some encouraging words, but all I could text back was "I've already missed the best times!!!"
And I want to post here that I TAKE THAT BACK.
And I have to keep telling myself that.
I might have missed being home with my babies while they were much younger, I might have missed watching them grow every day while I was working out of the home, and I might have missed so much more that I don't even know...but I'm here to promise that as long as I'm still working FT (plus some), I will not miss any more time that I AM home. My 3 babies will be my center of attention. I won't miss the time i do have with them.
And then, when that day comes that I can be home with them, I won't take it for granted. I won't complain. I won't miss time. I will soak it up, knowing I'm now doing what I've ALWAYS wanted to do. Be home with my kids. Get the daily household chores done while they are at school. Get dinner started. Have my husband home for dinner...not just for bed time. Not have to rush home from work to get them from the bus to have them do their homework to get them to activities. I don't want the rush. I want to enjoy. I want to soak it all in. I will make it ALL the best times!
And while I'm not there yet, I can feel it. I know it's so much closer than it's ever been. And until that day comes, I will enjoy the time I do have now. I will be more patient with them and myself and my husband. I will soak it all in.
I will make it ALL the best times! :)